So here we go:
Dear So and So
Thank you for bravely approaching me and asking me indirectly for a second chance. I know that your heart and your head are confused. As to why I am either shutting you out, or not accepting the proposal of a second chance, I feel should be explained. I am not as brave as you in approaching the subject matter so I use this assignment as a way of cleansing ME from YOUR soul. The Front and Back story to our relationship and its demise, I am sure you are aware of! You should be after all , we were once rather close you and I! So instead of rehashing all the details, some nasty and some not so nasty, I would rather explain to you why no second chances can be given. I hope you understand. Its important to me that the people in my life, those that I choose to maintain relationships with, understand and respect me and my behaviors at their face value. I can not be held down, or held back, in order to make someone else feel better about their own success (or lack of). I also can not dumb down to make you smarter. Understand, that I have a huge comedic ego that helps me overcome a shyness that few people see. I fear being alone, so letting you go was not so easy for me! I am an overly nurturing person and suffer quite a bit of codependency. I have a huge Hero Complex, and I love to be LOVED! So, if I'm not practically worshiped, I begin to feel used! All part of the Codependance Issues I have! I only tell you this because If I let you back IN and You shit on me, (again) I can no longer be mad at you! I would then need to be mad at me! I didnt leave our relationship to punish you! I left our relationship so that I didn't further PUNISH me! So as you sit and read this please know, you are missed and you are likely even loved by me....just not more loved then I love myself! Since our parting was never about you to begin with instead rather, about me, I cant in fact give you a second chance. I hope this has brought a clarity and a closure to you regarding what was once "US". Thank you too for thinking so kindly about me, even after all this time and may your life and your health be blessed!
With all my love!
Brandie
Muffin General Warning: Attention all Drama Mommas in the Muffin Club! For the Record*** this is written to anyone I have Left, or shut out. Not necessarily ONE person...since I have been approached on NUMEROUS Occasions by several people I have "BROKEN UP WITH" and I acknowledge that I have more then a couple~ Arm chair Shrinks~ in my life...I don't need to Psycho Analyze this...it appears quite clearly that I already have! You... however may if you wish analyze it to death!
