Its not a race to the finish this challenge of mine! Its actually not got a real ending if you will! I am use to setting goals and personal challenges for myself...remember the Mind FUKC blog I did? (Say yes or click and go read...Dang really?) well Ive been searching and searching for the
latest motivation, and actually it found me!
Its Actually Me!!!
A few of my readers (and based on comments, Id say none of you) have become my Facebook friends (Tag at the Bottom...Really People? Do I have to draw pictures?) and have the inside scoop to what often prompts my blogs. Im not a structured blogger by any means, and on occasion I blog Challenge with groups ie: BloggerStock. I often blog from the hip really.
So Back Story, Back Story, Back Story, you're finally caught up....
Ive decided that I will Practice Shutting my mouth! I know some of you (TERRY, ANGIE, LOUM, OILFIELD) are placing bets on my failure...and there in lies the challenge! My mouth gets me in trouble! I know if I say it, I should BACK IT UP! And, for the most part I can! However, I should learn to speak less for others! Especially if they've not asked for my opinion or have not lost their ability to speak and require my golden pipes out of necessity!
You see, I know that Duct Tape is Silver because Silence is Golden, Its true! Sometimes, my opinion comes barreling out of me like projecting puke...I call it my passion. Lately, my Passion has Stymied my Progress and that cant happen! I often am so passionate about my opinion, that I want to convert the heathens to my logic....I sometimes get so caught up in things and people and my passion, that I cant see past it. Normally this Passion involves people...and I end up either taking on their exhaustive problems and or behaviors, or I take their lack of good decision so personally, that I attempt to stop the rotation of the Earth to get "it" done for them...Whatever "IT" is! (Im really good at run on sentences aren't I?) Controlling~ is what "IT" is...and I have no business controlling anyone but the Muffin! That my dears is codependency! If I love you... and You have a heroine addiction... Well let me paint my issues picture this way: I'm the jackass on Intervention that will Justify Buying you drugs, and Shooting you up, because, I would rather keep my eye on you, and I tell myself you're safe, while you are killing yourself, You know...cuz Im keeping an eye out, to make sure it doesn't go to far! WELL HELLO DUMBASS! We already know when we're at this point that its gone too far! I know I should be throwing you out and keeping myself safe! Can I get a "HELL DUH?"
See...I know the behaviors I exhibit while in this pattern...and I know that codependency is my addiction, and Ive wasted the last five months running up a down escalator, and I knew the whole time that I was dealing with dysfunction and couldn't get myself off...(the escalator you pervy effers!) It was a reminder from the Universe that even though I think Ive got it figured out...that I must still practice good choices! I'm also now keenly aware that I'm easily pulled back into the dysfunction of some! I must be strong like Jedi Warrior to not fall back! So, from this day forward, I shut my mouth! I offer no additional help to those who choose to swim in the quick sand of Dysfunction! And So... my loyal Muffinites (All 5 of you!) Thanks! (thanks too, to the 29 followers that just follow me to increase my ego)....I do Love Ya Bitchess! I must though really ... LOVE ME! So I'm Dusting off of the road dirt of the last 5 months and catching up with my future! I cant believe its been 5 months!
What an utter waste of months!
Not Getting stuck on Stoopid from today forward!
Moving on to the next one!
Whoot! Sing it JAYZ!
Watch me go!!
Not Getting stuck on Stoopid from today forward!
Moving on to the next one!
Whoot! Sing it JAYZ!
Watch me go!!
~TAXI!!!!!
~Muffins on the Move Baby!
