Its been a while since I blogged my weight loss journey...That's because I haven't lost much weight...I'm frustrated! Using the Picture to the Left as an example, I have to say I look Fat...never mind that Karen and EJHJ both look like they could use a few Hot Meals worth of weight...Im also NOT writing this for compliments of how beautiful or not fat I look to you the reader! Im serious as a heart attack when I say I look fat...There are plenty of FAT people in my family and I don't look as FAT as some of them...But just saying...the hefty is in the DNA and I'm serious about wanting to buy an eating disorder at the local pharmacy...When I was in High School my family thought I had an eating disorder, I did not! I had issues that were strange...like I never felt Hunger...I always woke up fairly early and had plenty of energy. I would just not eat because I didn't feel hungry and so I would go sometimes a day or two with out eating anything significant. Also large quantities of food in one place would just nauseate the hell out of me...Thanksgiving and Family Sit-downs where all the food and you are basically on the table at once...Yeah I couldn't do that! Id eat away from the table ...like the breakfast bar...where all the food wasn't.
Coffee and a Cigarette for Breakfast and a Coke and a Cigarette for Lunch and I would usually eat what ever was made at Home for dinner, but not a lot because I wasn't hungry...I did want to avoid the comments about not eating or being to thin that would come from my Aunt or Grandmother...so I ate a little of what ever and did my best to avoid the topic.When I got married and lived on my Own we ate a dinner that always consisted of a meat, a starch, and a veggie...but nothing over the top too fancy or rich in sauce or flavor. I had a husband (EJHS) who would always say...You need to get some meat on your bones...I seriously tried gaining weight early in our marriage because I didn't want to hear his mouth run! So Until I was preggers with EJHJ I was pretty thin. Often times too thin! I think I probably had a thyroid problem...perhaps its was over active! Oh what I wouldn't give to have that now! Perhaps this is my true midlife crisis...I need to make some serious cash so that I can buy my skinny! I think that it would just be easier to have it sucked out and lifted up and implanted...I dont care if there is a little pain involved! No Pain No Gain right?
|No Back Fat and My arm Looks thinner|
|Over Exposure makes you thinner|
Im sure I have some Body Dis-morphia going on...but I dont think its so much dimorphic as it is mortified that Im getting FAT! Ugh! I even fished for a compliment from Hunka...I said...Do you notice a difference in me since I started working out...its been a solid 3 months now? He replied...Like Where DO you mean? I was like Ok thats the answer right there ... there is no difference.... So knowing he can be a bit slow sometimes I said...well like in my back maybe or even in my face a little? He reached out and pinched my back...in the "Chop" region of my shoulder and said You mean right there(Pinch Pinch)...Yeah I guess there is less fat there now....I was mortified...I felt so unattractive at that moment...I should've married Sir Mix A Lot! I cant be mad at him though he was trying to be honest...SIGH....So, Its back to the gym I go!
Signing off as a Super Sized Muffin Head....and Im not talking Ego Bitchess!